I've been a bad:

• Friend recently for not keeping in touch with some of my closest friends as much as I should have.
• Son/Nephew/Family member for not calling home to the Caribbean and letting my family know that I'm ok and what's new in my life
• Gym goer for having not been to the gym more than 3 times this month
• Blogger for not blogging within the past 13 days

In fact, the one thing that I seem to be really good at recently is work.

The people at work really like me and I really like my job; so much so that apparently I haven't been taking enough vacation for the year and now I actually need to take some days. I would never have thought I'd see the day.

Regardless, it's been a very busy few weeks. My best friend from back home is currently here visiting me for a week and it's been cool showing him around, shopping (well he's shopping, not me), etc.

It's actually very weird that of all my friends from back home, he's the only one I seem to remain in constant contact with, more so than even most of my friends here in the USA.

I think a big part of it has alot to do with the medium with which we stay in touch. Looking at the friends I talk to the most, there is a very common trend: Instant Messages and Text Messages.

I rarely if ever call people and have actually gone over my 1000 text message limit two months in a row while leaving hundreds of available free voice minutes.

I'm not really averse to having a voice conversation per se but I just never seem to do it. As for the gym and blogging, well that's just been plain laziness on my part.

-Jay

So I'm a little weird. I know this, many of YOU probably know this. Who wants to be normal anyways? LOL.

Anyways, today:

• I struggled to get out of bed because I couldn't sleep last night since my mind was racing.
  
• I bought a SINGLE share of Visa stock because I felt guilty using my Visa and American Express cards given that I own shares in Mastercard.
• I craved coffee for about 2 hours but refused to spend $5 on my usual Grande White Chocolate Mocha because it's so not worth it.
• I bought a pair of pants for work from Express and did everything within my power to preserve my tunnel vision (and bank account). Work pants and ONLY work pants.
• I realized that as much as everyone seems to think I'm this huge extrovert, that I'm really introverted and still keep alot internal to me.
  
• I also realized that if someone were to ask me what was the last book that I read, my answer would have to be "Harry Potter" and that was years ago. I really need to get back into the habit of reading again.
• I walked past signs urging me to donate blood and apart from the fact that I'm afraid of needles, was very agitated by the fact that I cannot give blood even if wanted to because I'm gay.
  

In case any of you have wondered how I act when I'm sick, (although I doubt any of you have), you should spend some time with me right about now. Miserable, grumpy and the desire to be coddled are but a few of my current traits.

Indifference also comes to mind. Indifference to the fact that I look like crap right now, indifference to the fact that I haven't consistently made it to the gym in over a month and indifference to the outside world.

Right about now I just want to curl up under the covers and watch tv or browse the web. I do really want some chicken soup right now though.

I'm not even afraid to say that right now I want my mommy! It figures that I get sick AFTER she leaves. Anyways, whenever I'm sick I become a big baby and I don't care what you or anyone else thinks! LOL.

That is all.

-Jay.

All I have to say is it's about DAMN time. I've literally spent hours talking to fellow blogger Kelly, who lives in LA and he has decided to grace NYC with his presence this coming Thursday for a few days.

Unlike other bloggers (such as K) who visited Kelly (and others) in LA earlier this year, I have yet to meet him in person. It's always weird when you meet someone in person that you know so much about from their blog or IM or even on the phone.You're pretty much meeting a brand new person yet you may know (some of) their secrets lol.

So that's who's coming, now for who is going.

My mom left NYC today. It's interesting how right before she comes to visit I always moan about how she's going to treat me like I'm 10 and how she'll put a crimp in my personal life especially since she doesn't know I'm gay.

Yet, every time I'm surprised and this time is no exception. She STILL doesn't know I'm gay but I had a great time with her although she really needs to spend less time shopping.

I'm the type of person who goes shopping with a list of items in my head of what I want and I buy those items. If I happen to run across something else I like, so be it. My mom on the other hand, must go down EVERY single aisle examining everything. Not a good thing in large department stores! Thank god for iPods LOL.

Regardless I'm going to miss having her around. My apartment seems very empty now that she's gone.

Of course it won't be empty for long. So many of my friends have made "reservations" over the coming few weeks that I might actually be begging for some personal space soon.

That's all folks!

-Jay

Never ever EVER tell a guy that you're dating about your blog when you have used it as a ranting board to get stuff off of your chest. I've removed all posts about him as well as any content in posts that reference him.

I just never thought it'd be that big a deal. I've dated other guys before who knew about the blog and even knew (and read) when I posted details about fights, etc. I suppose I just assumed, never again.

Regardless I apologize.

That is all.

-Jay.

Well, it has been 17+ days since my last post. It would be cool if this were post #17 but it's just two short. Oh well.

I've been super busy with a whole bunch of things going on in my life right now. Anyways, I figured I'd give you guys an update on exactly what has occurred over the past 17 days and what I think will occur in the upcoming months.

My mom is here visiting me from home. I considered coming out to her while she was here but her reaction to some of the gays here was a bit odd. She didn't say anything but just shook her head when she saw this one obviously gay man. Yet, we sat down and watched Project Runway together just last night.

I think on some level, she knows. Plus, all of her friends always ask "So Jay, do you have a girlfriend?" Before she came she also text messaged me asking me this very same thing. Sometimes I think from the way she looks at me that she knows.

There is now a 90% chance that I will be working in London for 5 months later this year. I'm super pumped about this and had actually pushed for this.

I'm super pumped and of course a lil sad about leaving all of my friends for so long but I'll be back. My friends will still be here.

This is an amazing career opportunity and something that I'm definitely excited about doing. Hopefully I'll soon be typing my posts from London!

All of this has happened in 17 days.

-Jay

• You know what irritates me, people who take the elevator down ONE floor. This one guy does it all the fricking time in my apartment building.
  


• I live on the 14th floor, but the 14th floor is actually the 13th floor since right below me is floor 12. I guess they chose to skip 13 for superstitious reasons.


• I am absolutely exhausted this week. I haven't had a full night's sleep since last Wednesday. On Thursday I went on a date, then packed for my flight to Pittsburgh where I ended up renting a uHaul and giving all my stuff away to the Salvation Army. I then recycled all my old notes from school at a nearby Whole Foods. Hopefully this will lead to some major karma points lol.


• I actually almost missed my flight to Pittsburgh because I arrived at the gate and saw the seats next to the gate full of people and assumed the flight hadn't boarded yet. Plus the display of the flight information said nothing like "Boarding or Boarded."
  


• I pretty much had to run down the tube onto the plane because they were about to close the door. Luckily I wasn't the only one so I didn't feel like a complete idiot.
  


• It was pride weekend in Pittsburgh so the city had a massive street party downtown on Saturday night with $5 booze (woohoo) and we even had a performance from former American Idol contestant Kimberly Locke.


• On this night, this older gentleman (who happened to be a bear) kept staring at me and pretending to whip me with his glow stick. Awkward lol.
  


• I got one of my friends to grow a pair of balls and approach a guy he was staring at all night. So far so good, they seem to like each other so he owes me big time!


• Some guy as he was walking past me grabbed my butt. It had been awhile since anyone had done anything of the sort so I kind of wondered if I should just let it be an ego boost or if I should be irritated.
  


• The sunday morning was the Pride parade and I spent my time walking around with some of my friends until it was time for my flight.
  


• I went to my first concert in the USA on Monday night with fellow blogger Billy. I had blogged about winning free concert tickets a while back. What band throws a free concert at MSG? Coldplay! It was absolutely amazing, they rocked and I'm definitely buying the new cd.
  


• Billy has some pics of the concert here.
  


• After the concert, Billy and I were both caught up staring at this hot guy in front of us going down the escalator. We think he was there was his mom. How cute is that?
  


• I'm really thinking about buying the new iPhone except that the fact that it's so cheap means that everyone is probably going to have one and this makes them less attractive to me. Does that mean I'm a phone snob? I just don't want it to be another Razr.


• There was a gay event at work today and while I was very interested in attending I somehow couldn't find it in me to go because I really wasn't sure I was ready for that. I got caught up in doing other things and completely forgot about the event until after it was over anyways.

-Jay